Flowers

 2006 May Day fast passed, and today is already May 6 friends, alas, is a meta talk in the May ah!
Evening, a man slowly walking in the campus, with depressed mood , brisk walking along that they have the trees planted road for a year, my mind sometimes blank, sometimes a mess. suddenly looked up, eyes suddenly light up, saw the roadside hawthorn tree out of the yellowish white flowers. So I stopped, quietly looking at the flowers.
to National Chiao Tung University has been almost a year, had received the notice of the time, the cover read, I always understand, Why? until last year when the New Year approached, the original National Chiao Tung University students told me: National Chiao Tung University to move to here, where all the red fruit, so put the campus is called the Now think about it, the red fruit is also a very poetic name ah.
Looking at the flowers down low, but inexplicably took to heart the waves of grief, sitting under a tree pair of lovers, who also has a static quiet reading, where, how pleasant ah! so many years on the school, but not a day had such a pleasant experience, O, and now they have no such feelings themselves. Though quite young, but his heart seems very old, every day is always so low.
not want these flowers, although there is no smell, but looking at it is very comfortable. but is himself unwilling or afraid to look at that pair of lovers under the tree back to see to them, and thought I had lost love, your heart will be more sad, and usually this time, tears will not stop the Orbital in turn. As a man, I do not want other people to see me cry.
want to leave, but had to leave, but also to dinner, or a hungry again.
walked not far from the restaurant, I suddenly smelled long the flowers. ah! returning to the flowers ah! for many years had not heard of this fragrance mm SJ Hong. looked around, I realize I was standing under a huge acacia trees, the top has been covered with a string of a string of white locust, and studded with bits and pieces green. Oh, I realize I have not noticed a long time the world around the mm their days away from the road, but never found that even here there is a large locust tree.
Huai has not eaten for years spent the last impression is grandma doing at the home of a group of her grandchildren and great-grandsons scenarios. Unfortunately, he has to leave his home for many years, only to go back a few times a year, but always keep up when open Sophorae , and grandmother also passed away years earlier. For a lot of memories of Grandma and Sophora japonica are related, but Grandpa is and willow mm grandfather often led the group of his great grandson sitting under a willow tree, one by one Liu post them to do.
Oh, Grandma Grandpa died less than a month before and after the interval, their marriage, like all the old people in old China, nothing exciting. by age calculation, they considered the people of the Great Qing Dynasty. Although did not have what a good life, there is experienced a lot of wind and rain, and they also have a lot of people want mm diamond wedding. Every time I see willow will think of my grandfather, I think of his big fur coat, calloused big hand, there are huge cotton boots. a child, we often climbed up grandpa first mm we like his big bald head, wearing his big cotton boots, strenuous move forward step by step,
can often think of my grandfather because I can often see in the city willow, but rarely see Ash, and today, I was surprised to see, and be at the heart of Beijing, I saw a big of a locust tree on the grandmother's thought about my heart.
Grandma and Grandpa on my heart has always been very guilty. remember as a child, I often naive to ask: the same way, the same one word answer is not bad to answer me: with a puzzled look at him, and he is the kind of Chinese farmers are always unique to laugh at me,
However, many years later, in 2000, when I got his wish to go to college after less than half a year away from release in a few days before, suddenly my father called to tell me that my grandmother had died. I do not believe this is true. because Grandma Although very old, but in good health, how to say death on the death of it. However, a person calm down, I began to slowly come to accept this reality. Although not very far from home, but I did not go back, I do not know how to deal with what happened. father was worried about my accident because I grew up with the grandmother mm slept with a large, deep feelings, and called to tell me that my grandmother is old, too old. The teacher also told me that is called white hi, I did not say a word, I can not open mouth, I'm afraid the tears will flow out of a mouth, back to the dormitory I cried over in bed and then began slowly to face the reality, and my heart began to pray for me and Grandpa mm.
had a festive atmosphere without any after the Spring Festival, the fifteenth day before I returned to school. is really a double whammy, a few days later, the family has called for the grandfather also died. God, less than a month time, I lost my childhood to my grandparents raised, I got into the car to go home, but unfortunately could not catch up with my grandfather's funeral. dad told me that my grandfather passed away without pain, he was in a dream in death.
is a white hi. I began to recall my grandmother grandfather's face, remembering all they left me. Suddenly, I remembered my grandfather always said that the sentence mm so you go to college, I and your grandmother died. it really, as he said it, I go to college less than six months, they have died. God, the world is really God do???? Otherwise, how would this to happen? If I did not go to college, is not the death of my grandfather and grandmother would not have it?? In that case, I'd rather not go to college.
back home, his father to see my heart me and said things do not none of your business, do not be too self-blame, because they are too old, normal. Yes ah, but old people are dead, and normal, but I can not understand why things will really Grandpa said, like waiting for you as it mm go to college, I and your grandmother died.
brain can now emerge out of San Ye (Grandpa's third elder brother) to climb in the grandfather's body crying like (my father described), imagine a 90-year-old climbing more than 90 years of age in their first section of the body pro-howl, is what kind of scenario, imagine a 90 year old man standing in tears entrance to the village, despite the biting north wind in his face, but still stood there, keep looking at the direction of his brother's grave, how it is a kind of scenario. Some people may feel this is nothing, but whenever I think of this scenario, irrepressible tears are streaming down my tear ducts may be too well developed it. grandfather's death a great blow to the San Ye, shortly after the body had a good day San Ye is also a thin, and finally could not have been The next year, passed away on.
cry me a while vehicles pulled back from the memories, and I feel extremely heavy, which also carries a heavy in recent days of emotional distress.
slowly into the dining hall, eating is not the slightest taste of the food, looking at different students around the face, empty heart in vain. Lirong TV is playing the piece, think she is the person who has passed away, but we can still see her smile, and my grandparents do, only a few left me some yellowing black and white photographs.
eleven at night went to lab, Hall went to the edge of science when they heard the evening of Sophora japonica L. Hong. Oh, there are also Sophora japonica tree ah. Just two hours ago, I gave a telephone call at home from the phone could hear, some unhappy mother, and father was ill. The day before yesterday I have felt, so today it hit a telephone, I am worried that she and Dad, because they are my closest in the world who are dearest to them, I would rather give his life, I do not want them any things happen.
all the sad things are concentrated into one day, my mood has plunged into the valley bottom, no one can tell I had to come back, write down all of his, better in the heart Public Security University, the younger brother to school, because it is accompanied by his grandfather a man to take care of his grandfather mm is much better than I do, until the grandfather away, and gave Grandpa finishing left something behind. Just one thing, I to make can not forgive himself, but also still do not understand it really mm test because the university makes its own grandparents died of it? grandfather for her grandmother's sons, I have nothing to say, maybe I do not know what they do things, but anyway, I now had only dissatisfaction and anger, because in my opinion, they have failed to do filial piety.